I seriously don't know how i should describe my feelings. I don't wanna risk anything anymore. I don't want to think too high of myself and end up falling down. I don't want to for sake anything anymore. Please. It's about time for me to realize what i can and what i can't. I won't take everything into my hands and slip them away one more time. I don't want to regret yet another time.

It's difficult when you've made a very huge mistake right at the very beginning of the journey and regret everything else now. All i need to do now is complete this ASAP (which will be fucking later because i'm gonna have to retake one of the module). I really need to get this over with as soon as possible and move on with life. Moving on, doing something i really enjoy. No longer doing something i'm pretending, or i should say trying to enjoy.

This is hard. Indeed very hard. Keep on thinking about this makes me no better. I better get going.

When, when will i be able to do something i really enjoy doing. I miss first semester. I really mean it.

And it's like 6352197728162153616371516425 days since i update. Sorry readers. Now, i'm back but i don't know when will my next update be. (: !

Anyway, i'm back just to make sure this blog isn't dead. And HELLO.