PHONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE faster 100%. I wanna talk to boyfriend.

I was having a day with my sister. When she asked me something and it made me think and think and think and think.

She asked, "If you were stuck in the middle of the sea with two friends. Both then told you that no matter what happen do not bother to save them but save yourself. Suddenly, something happened and both of your friends were drowning. What will you do? Which one will you save? Both were important to you."

I answered, "I will drown myself too and tell them do not save me either."

Obviously, that is just to escape from choosing who to save. But the next question that pops out in my head was who in this world will kill themselves to die and suffer together with the two friends that is dying? Right? I mean very often when a friend is fighting for life or in trouble, how many of us really fight with them and go through the trouble together and make sure he/she is protected from unhappiness? No, i'm not saying this people doesn't exist. They do. Just that, how many of them?

Yes, you're right. The answer is not many. Sad isn't it?

However, i'm proud to say i will be that friend. (:

I swear that dream was just sad and you know confusing. I dreamt you were married and i was there to see everything with a broken heart. Like, wth. At the same time i'm glad you're married. But why were you all nice to me at your marriage? I wonder.

Afterall, it was just a dream. Bye.

"Give me one reason why i hate you. Stop, cause the only reason i think that is suitable is because you make my life miserable. Period. Yes, you. Maybe i shouldn't blame you, but you made me this way. You made me into a person that has nothing but insecurity and hatred. You made me lose all the confidence that i ever had. It may not be you. However, it may be just you. You get what i mean? Whatever it is my friend, i hate you.

People always ask me why hate. I answer because i met you. And because you met me. In other words, you taught me how to hate. And you taught me how to judge people because you judged me too. A little unfair , but that is what i get from knowing you.

That is because you did nothing but miserably miserabled my life. "

If you ever make my life miserably miserable, then this is for you.

Awesome. My rings are here. See, even mum like it. Haha. (:

Today is nothing much yet. It is still early. I am just so happy that my rings are here that i wanted to show the world how happy i am.

Weird isn't it? How small things like this can make me feel like i'm on cloud 9. Yes, that's me.

ALright, i better get going. Bye.

Hello.

I hate the feeling when i want to know something and at the same time i do not want to. It is like fuck it man. But i can't stop this feeling, what should i do? I will always end up knowing it and got myself pissed off and irritated. Fish it. I better let it go, right? Yeah, let it go. Brrrr. Brrr. Brrr. Okay, gone. Haah.

Today is fun because of the fact that me, mum and my maid were actually 'shopping' together. Mum were extra generous today i do not know why. Either than that i am not having fun today. I was like suppose to meet my coursemates for a shopping trip and karaoke-ing, but mum doesn't allow me to go because i am sick. I partially lost my voice yesterday because of work. Irritating much? Yeah. Rough day when you're sick and still goes to work.

The bright side today is mum is cooking wantan for dinner today. (Y) I told her to make many many wantan and it is all for me. MUAHAHAHA. I know, it is awesome that way lah. That's why. Mum's wantan is a must to eat many many. So don't blame me.

Alright, i got to go. Byee.

Hello.

Yet again i have to skip work. Thanks to fever, sorethroat and the irritating cough. I hate being sick.

I swear that this time round my holidays are beyond boring. It is like i am at home almost all the time. How sad right? SUPER DUPER WOOPER sad. I want to go out but.. first, i do not know where to go because i am trying to save bucks. Second, everyone i asked out turn out to be busy. Third, i am sick! ):

Holidays been home, teevee, sleep or work, home, sleep. How pathetic uh?

Okay i got to go. Bye all.

Sometimes i'm just jealous.

Well, i'm sorry for being stupid and naive. I'm sorry for being too sensitive but i am like this because i thought by being stupid and naive only then will i get all the attention. Honestly, i know it was wrong and always been wrong. But what else can i do? That is the only way to get attention.

Do you people really care about me? Do you? ):

I am very heartbroken. I am.

PS : I am very sorry if this post hit anyone. This post is honestly truely what is in my heart. I'm sorry if it makes any of you angry or anything. That was not the intention.

Hello.

Picture was taken a week ago.

I have been sick since Wednesday. Not fun at all. I was like so weak and my head was like so heavy. And i am still sick now. Getting worst in fact. ): Sob sob.

Anyway, i met Zenia today (yeah, i know. i am a stubborn girl). Well, i promised her so i can't simply back out at the very last minute. So i met her today for lunch at Swensens. We had a major catch up and it was fantastic. I miss those days where i will just complain and complain to her about my life and she will do just the same to me. I miss my Zenia. Today was awesome but sadly i had to leave at 3.30PM to meet my sisters.

Psst, Zen, we shall have the whole day ours next time okay? (: ! I love you.

Like finally today i bought my younger sister her long awaiting birthday present. Nice shoes. (Y).

I miss boyfriend. Yeah, i still miss him. ): It's like please the date we had on Wednesday were SO short. Movie soon okay boyfriend? I love you.

And i miss best friend. He sms-ed me today and complaining how hard his NS training were. I was like SCARY! /; Anyway, best friend, you'll be alright. (:

BYE!

Hello.

I am feeling 101% guilty for not attending work. Not attending work = no salary = no extra pocket money = POOOOOOOR ? Nah. N0t poor, just lesser money to spend. Haah. Okay okay, work aside. I'm letting go of work this few days. I am so sorry Hazel.

Anyway, i have been babysitting my nephew on Monday and Tuesday. Trust me it is awesome yet tiring. Anywho anyhow, i still love babysitting and looking after him. Children are so cute that they can make me wanna bite their cheeks off. (: !

So many to tell you but i don't know how to say it my dearest diary. I guess i shall just end it here.

PS: So happy to see boyfriend yesterday after almost to 2 weeks of not seeing him.

Okay, BYE.

All i got to do is be careful and i will be alright.

Hello.

I believe things will be alright even though warnings were sent out across. I believe i will not scare myself by predictions made by people at twitter except official news. I believe the world will be alright. I believe in ALLAH that he will protect us all.

AMIN.

Hello.

I am officially free from stress and school for a month. I am a happy girl!

Yesterday was the final day and that means it was the presentation day. Nah, my group did not manage to meet all the requirements. Like example our website were not out at the very last minute because of some error. However, trust me i am proud of my work this time. I am very please and happy with what my group have and what we have been putting for the past 3 weeks. Finally, it is all done and over. Flaws here and there but we improved. And that is a huge success for me. For my improvements, i want to say a huge thank you to boyfriend for helping me out in my modelling and guiding me through out the project. Also, i want to thanks Miss Lum for the guiding, comments and the advices. I want to thanks my elder sister for sacrificing her sleep hours for the last week of the project fetching me and my group members home. I want to thanks my parents for constantly waking me up early and make sure i finish up my work properly and always send me to school without fail each time i need to be in school. Lastly, i will like to say a huge thanks to my group members (Jeff and Wen Been).

Well, that is it for my studio project. (:

Now, i am dead tired because i had to look after my nephew for the whole day. It was fun having him around at home but tiring because mum and my maid could not help me look after him today as they were busy with tomorrow's orders. So i had to look after my nephew all by myself. Proud to say i did manage to. TGID. And okay, so sent him home and now i'm all alone in my room watching teevee.

I need to sleep soon. Working tomorrow.

So i guess, BYE!

Till next time honeyys. Loves.