The space in my heart is EMPTY.
But i don't want it to be filled.
He filled it once and i think it's enough.
Maybe at times, lonely is the exact feeling.
But seeing how deep this cut in this heart,
I told myself enough is enough.
Be afraid, be aware.

3 things i've stopped believing in:

Constantly now i refuse to believe I LOVE YOU exist.
To me the existence of the I LOVE YOU should be extinct by now.
Cause too many made it a bad name and meaning.
Too many was hurt by it.
Too many die because of believing in it -Suicidal deaths.

Another, FOREVER shouldn't even be in the dictionary.
The definition of FOREVER is a total opposite of whatever i'm going through.
He used to say FOREVER to me, he even say i'll wait for you FOREVER.
But, i realised it was never FOREVER.
Hurtful isn't it.
Too much to believe in FOREVER.
Maybe, my FOREVER is NEVER.

PROMISE the one i hate the most.
He promised me a thousand promises and none was fulfilled.
I know, i have my weakness in here as well.
I've promised him and i fulfilled minority of it.
That's why i hate this.
PROMISE will just remain as promises.
As usual, it hurt most lovers.
And i'm one of them.
Believe in PROMISEs and you'll be hurting your very own heart the next moment.


Well, there it goes. I LOVE YOU, FOREVER and PROMISE. The 3 things i hate the most.
Like seriously, those mentioned hurt me more than once. And, they taught me nothing but to fully understand the meaning of being hurt and having your heart break into pieces. I thanks all 3.

3 years of loving was just empty with nothing but pretends from me and you. We both pretended too much that it hurts me more than it hurts you -i suppose. Yes, I asked for the break. And he cried like one ass. Full of bullshits, and i end up learning that he's moving further then i am. At least i remember the good things and memories we've been through. I doubt he do. Cause he got new memories to be made with her.

All i hope for is he won't hurt her like he hurt me. He won't break her heart like how he break mine. Boy, love her truely. Do not make her like how you made me.

Maybe you didn't teach me what's love is and you didn't make me understand how love really feels. Maybe you made me hate those 3 things. But, i should thank you cause you made me learnt that hurt can be so hurtful that i feel my heart being sliced and at times, the pain is unbearable.

Truely, i am happy that ya moving on. Finally, you are. I have nothing else to worry about now. Continue moving on. Boy, good luck and thank you. May god bless ya both.





Noone knows how i feel just no one. Sometimes, i just feel like running away from here and never come back.