Life is demanding too much from me again.
Or maybe it's just me.
But seriously,
Time like this all i want to do is to close my eyes.
And just press the rewind button and repeat life for the better.
Just because i felt like i'm a failure in life.


SCHOOL is FUCKED UP!
Another crash down.
Maybe, just maybe, i'm expecting too much from myself.
Yes, i do expect the failure, but at the same time seeing and realising that i can actually do better just makes me feel like shit.
I mean, come on. Who doesn't want to be the best if they know they can be the best right?
Seriously, i feel downcast-ed.
It's like hey why is everybody able to do just perfectly fine but not me?
I feel terrible.
I mean, where is all my abilities gone to?
Where has it all gone to?
Stupid, i feel stupid.
My heart says i can't feel this way.
One reason -it's not the end.
But, seeing the grades is like -God, why am i here then?
You know?
It's like i'm at the wrong place doing the wrong things.
Afterall, it isn't my number 1 choice in the list.
Maybe i'm meant to be here, doing all this.
Which i never thought would be difficult.
Or maybe, everything that i'm learning now isn't my thing?
But, if it isn't my thing then that's the reason why i'm learning it.
Right?

I don't know.
See, this why school is confusing for me.
I don't know what i want and what i want to be later on in future.
I don't even know what i can hold.
Maybe i just haven't see it yet.
I don't know what's my dream is all about.




Bye, a little too dramatic for today's post. But that's how i feel.
*Hugs and Kisses*

Blog is getting empty.
Don't know what to update about.
Mind's blank.
EMPTY.
STILL EMPTY.
Wait, not entirely.
Baby's face is coming in my mind.
ARGH!
Baby's face still.
NAH, blog is useless.
I shall continue having baby's face in mind.
(: ! LOVE YOU ALL. MUACKS. BYE!





PS -i know it's a very very very lame post. But who cares?

Hello.

Love her like you never love anyone before.
See her like you never see anyone before.
Feel her like you never feel anyone before.

For someone. (: !
Congrats. You're finally seeing the magic of moving on.

Hello.

2010 is slowly being great.

Anyway, who cares yet? As long as school is still on, i don't care if 2010 is good or bad. Cause, school's been real bad for me. Real bad. Especially last week.

I've fucked up a lot of module. Like seriously. I've screwed up animation assignment 3, GPM test, animation test, part 1 of storyboarding assignment and as well as MAYA. Tell me, how much more worst can it go? Well, screwed it up and i felt like giving up. But nah, i pull back that thinking from me. (: !

And thank god, this week -everything's fine so far.

Oh by the way, this eye is irritating me. -.-' ! PAIN PAIN!
Mum told me to go to the doctor tomorrow and MC. AGAIN!


I hate it.


BYE!

Why is everyone else able to take one step at a time and take everything else as easy as possible, but not me?
Why is everyone else is able to look at things positively, but not me?
Why is everyone else can do it, but not me?
Why is it always everyone else, but not me?


WHY?! Someone, talk to me and tell me why.
):

Hello.

So you told us you can and you will, but till now you didn't. Hey, excuse me, what are you trying to do right now? Cheat on us. God damn it! Think of it, you're a jerk. See, if you're facing what we are facing, tell us will you be able to tolerate any fuck-ed up behaviour like yours? ATTITUDE. Get your work done, not get our money. -.-' !

2010, when will you be good to me? Not blaming, just asking.

Hello.

I don't know what's happening. Everything suddenly seems to be so fucking cramped. My head can't stop thinking. Everything seems to be out of place. Just everything seems to be messy. Yes, MESSY.

Where's my promise to a good start for 2010? Looks like it's just an unattended promise. Forget it.
Now, my mission for today is:

Homework.
Homework.
Homework.
Teevee.
Sleep.
Homework.
Pack some stuff to bring to woodlands.
SLEEP!







HOW MUCH MORE TIME AM I LEFT WITH FOR ALL THIS?

2010 IS HERE!

First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR friends and all! Be it those that SMS-ed me or email me or any way, this wish is for all of you! :D

Anyway, i hope 2010 will be a blessing year for each and everyone of us. Whatever happened in 2009, let's forget it and it's time to open a new page in life. A new story to begin with. :D ! Stay happy always. Remember, HIDAH LOVES YOU!

PS: I didn't SMS because i know the line will just be STUCK.

After those wishes, i had all my resolutions set in my mind. I hope this year will be a better year ahead.

2010 -i will start you well, i promise.

*jumps around.*